more on the loneliness of no reciprocity: i have often thought every human alive is creative. surviving a cycle of daylight to night and back to light again, is human art. that is a kind of creativity.
another idea is this business of "discovery". what i tell myself (to feel better) is that i won't spend time or money advertising my work, my art. i won't vie to be playlisted and copied on other websites, etc. instead, i tell myself let someone (please?) discover me, and reciprocate by buying my music, or responding in some way. i tell myself, just put the "content" out there, see what happens. don't expect. then, don't get hurt. done and dusted. or, is it? what about that insatiable human need to be loved?
hi haleigh: thanks for this interesting introspective essay. oh haleigh, <no need to reply>.
you know, i often start emails with that no-need-reply direction. i think it's me warding off potential expectation and hurt. like you talk about. i've thought about this subject, too. like you, i have queries and pronouncements on reciprocity in our relations. it occurs, another word for it could be acknowledgement, "like" the way i'm acknowledging you now.
but this *lack* of reciprocity, not getting back the love you talked about, speaks to me. expectations dashed, feelings hurt. please love me. look at me, please. that's me talking, btw.
i like what you say about being created to give. not to expect. is this what a creative *must* do? it just occurred, what goes on inwardly when there is viral reciprocity? fame? i think you might say that kind of online zeitgeist reciprocity is not the same as actual relationships. probably so. we should ask someone famous about that fandom they experience. does it alter their creative paths? it *must*. wouldn't you say? but then the back to the unknown (me) love-sick creative. the artist. what will he do? i wonder about that trope...artists *must* create to survive, it is the air they breathe. is it? is it that search for love you talk about? nothing more, or less? i'm rambling now. keep going and thanks, again. j.
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more on the loneliness of no reciprocity: i have often thought every human alive is creative. surviving a cycle of daylight to night and back to light again, is human art. that is a kind of creativity.
another idea is this business of "discovery". what i tell myself (to feel better) is that i won't spend time or money advertising my work, my art. i won't vie to be playlisted and copied on other websites, etc. instead, i tell myself let someone (please?) discover me, and reciprocate by buying my music, or responding in some way. i tell myself, just put the "content" out there, see what happens. don't expect. then, don't get hurt. done and dusted. or, is it? what about that insatiable human need to be loved?
hi haleigh: thanks for this interesting introspective essay. oh haleigh, <no need to reply>.
you know, i often start emails with that no-need-reply direction. i think it's me warding off potential expectation and hurt. like you talk about. i've thought about this subject, too. like you, i have queries and pronouncements on reciprocity in our relations. it occurs, another word for it could be acknowledgement, "like" the way i'm acknowledging you now.
but this *lack* of reciprocity, not getting back the love you talked about, speaks to me. expectations dashed, feelings hurt. please love me. look at me, please. that's me talking, btw.
i like what you say about being created to give. not to expect. is this what a creative *must* do? it just occurred, what goes on inwardly when there is viral reciprocity? fame? i think you might say that kind of online zeitgeist reciprocity is not the same as actual relationships. probably so. we should ask someone famous about that fandom they experience. does it alter their creative paths? it *must*. wouldn't you say? but then the back to the unknown (me) love-sick creative. the artist. what will he do? i wonder about that trope...artists *must* create to survive, it is the air they breathe. is it? is it that search for love you talk about? nothing more, or less? i'm rambling now. keep going and thanks, again. j.